While I was writing a letter to Brandon this last week, I found I was still in the throws of grieving and missing my three children who are absent from our home. As I wrote him, some much needed understanding started to fall into place for me. I realized the beauty of the process of life for the first time sense Mariela died. It felt so refreshing to feel the spirit prick my heart and give me some help to cross the bridge to a new level of understanding and acceptance. I have prayed during almost every quiet moment since Rebekah left, for acceptance of this new phase of my life. I have thrown 100 percent of my heart into raising my children. After Rebekah left, her absence on top of Brandon and Mariela's was just too much to bare. I realized how vulnerable I was caring so much for my children. I wanted to withdraw that vulnerability
Eathyn Has the Croup
At one a.m. Eathyn started crouping in his crib. It was bad! Every single time he breathed out he would croup really bad. I took him into the bathroom and started the hot water. The steam subsided the severity of his cough but he was still sounding bad. I put him in bed with Brett and I when he started to panic in his crib because of the cough. While I was in there I gave him some ice water and that immediately started to break up the cough. Interesting.... is croup that simple, all it needs is some nice cold ice water???? I was glad to come across a remedy that was so simple. While I was laying there I started thinking about the events of the evening before and told Brett about something really funny that had happened. Every morning when Mariela's nurse Marilyn walks through the door Eathyn use to ask for candy. After a couple days of this I thought, "is he too young to learn to say good morning instead of, 'can I have some ca...
