I realized this weekend while talking to Marilyn that I have some co dependant traits.  I've never noticed them before now.  But now that I look back over my life I see that I've had a measure of co-dependancy inflicting my life for most of my life.  Co dependency was brought up in Marilyn and my  conversation but it didn't hit me until I was thinking about it today while I was taking a nap this morning.  I layed there after I woke up and continued thinking about my friendship with Marilyn.  I have been dependant on her from almost the very first day she came into my home.  It's eaten me up off and on over the last year and a half.  I have struggled with obcessive thoughts for our friendship and our time together to find time to talk for the last year and a half.  It was very easy to start depending on our conversations from the second day she was in my home and we started to talk and heaven and earth tend to combine when we talk.  We laugh or we cry with out fail every time we talk.  I stayed at her house this last week end to get caught up and to treat my self to something other than cleaning house and working on the campaign.  Her and I talked from 9p-5a and we had to force ourselves to sleep because we were a long way from running out of things to talk about.  Neither of us were even tired.  Then we talked for another three hours after she got home from church and then again from 6-12:30a.  It's been an incredible opportunity to be friends.  But I realized today that I rely on that friendship to fill me up or I wish it could. I called my sister Tami who has always struggled with co-dependant traits.  She said, Cindy, this is not the first thing you have been co-dependant with."  I realized as we talked that she was totally right! I wish I'd noticed it years ago. She said, I'm going to tell you two things that come to the top of my head to tell you how to become less co-dependant.  The only way you can make that happen is, you need to be your own best friend.  Treat your self like you treat other people. And have a very close relationship with your father in heaven.

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